Crappy Week

I wish i could erase this week from my memory. What a crappy week! And it's just Wednesday. Few more days to go and i'm already dreading the coming days.

It's so difficult when you have to cover the blunders that people around you make. One of my panel members( Teacher A ) forgot (!) to set the exam paper and we came to know about the 'absence' of examination papers just 30 minutes before the exam! Everyone panicked and i had to handle the situation as the head of the panel. It's so difficult to handle scold your seniors and it's extra difficult for me as i don't know how to lash out at people. i remember informing her about her duty 3 weeks before the exam and yet she forgot. And when i questioned her she passed the blame on another teacher ( teacher B)  and eventually admitted that she overlooked the matter. So we decided to resolve the matter by setting an instant paper and i thought that was it when Teacher B barged in all teary demanding apology from teacher A for unnecessarily dragging in her name. I was actually stunned at teachers behaving so kiddish. Few colleagues intervened and we managed to calm her down (well, that's what i thought). Then, i came to know this teacher went to see the Senior Assistant and cried and complained and did all that she could to get the whole school's attention. Though it was Teacher A's mistake to have dragged in Teacher B i still can't justify Teacher B's reaction to this matter.  I wish she could have exhibited some maturity in this matter. I thought  i'm very kiddish in handling emotions and these people prove me wrong :) One of my friends was surprised that i did not lash out or get emotional handling the situation. I guess she does not know that i CAN'T lash out at people and that's why i'm amused to see people screaming at each other in public. Anyways the whole school got to know that issue and everyone was drilling me with the same "what happened" dialogue whole day :(

When people around you make a blunder you can cover for them and support them and but when people who are close to you make blunder and it affects someone dear to you what do you do? That's the 'torn-in-between-two' dilemma. If you support one then indirectly you are hurting the other and there is no win-win situation here either. Truth hurts :( Godspeed

Azhaipaya

Chanced upon this song and love the cute lyrics :)

Silence is Not so Golden

I'm having the sudden urge to write something but my brain is not co-operating. May be i'm mentally exhausted marking my students' atrocious writings. When i was a student i never detested examinations. I know many of my friends hated me for saying this, but i have always believed exams are fun. But when it stretches to 2nd/3rd week i admit i slightly get annoyed. In fact during my university days i have always preferred tests to assignments. The reason is simple..you can plagiarize your assignments but examinations show what you really have got inside there.

Fast forward few years, now i detest examinations. My sole reason is it's boring. As a language teacher my marking is tedious compared to other subjects and i have to mark roughly 300 over scripts. But that's not the issue here though at times it could be:) I hate invigilating examinations. There is nothing mundane than invigilating. I don't know if anyone enjoys it. Silence makes me feel awkward, very conscious.  I feel uncomfortable when there is pin drop silence around me. Silence is golden, huh? I feel so restless and bored when the class is so silent. In fact, during my teaching and learning i always make sure my class is not silent by encouraging them to make some 'good' noise. While there are people who feel calm and able to do soul-searching in silence, it brings adverse effect to me. My room is never quiet. There is always music in the room and it's only quiet when i'm in dreamland. The first thing i do when i wake up in the morning is on my laptop and play music. It elevates one's mood, i think.

The only time i wish for silence is when my house owner sings karaoke :) I think he has fixed a CCTV in my room cause his timing is sooo prefect. He sings when i'm having my snooze :(