Sunday, October 11, 2009

Of a Loss and a Gain





After a long break, now i'm back with a bang. These past few weeks has been quite eventful and believe it or not has been all about saying hi to some and saying goodbye to some. 2 weeks ago, i successfully finished my practicum and slowly getting ready to enter into the working world of adults which still sends jitters to me.




About the farewell, i was surprised to get so many gifts from my students especially certain little devils whom i thought hate me to the core. Though the gifts were tiny and simple, they worth millions to me as they are from my first students and also it's a symbol of love, affection and respect. Imagine the student running off to the school Koperasi shop to get a note pad and a pen while i was teaching when she came to know that was my last day of teaching them. I still remember telling my friend that nor me neither my students will feel sad on my last day of school and it turned out to be just the opposite. In my class, there was a giggling student whom i never forget to scold. She giggles without reason and never does any of my work. I love teasing her in the class and she never fails to respond either. On my last day in the school, she came to me and gave a wrapped gift and said. "Teacher when you unwrap this gift, i bet you'll smile also". And exactly as she had said, i burst out laughing at the little cute ANT MONSTER that she had given me.




Amidst all this, just 3 days ago, one of my students passed away of heart attack. I remember her as a petite girl whom i thought as a weak girl but actually proved me wrong when she responded to my question. God bless the soul of the little angel. 16 years is no age to say goodbye to the world and this is definitely one of the toughest good bye for me.




On other note, just as said by to my students, recently i bumped into my ex-teacher in the Deepavali Carnival, KL Central. I have been looking for her for past 10 years plus and out of sudden there she was walking in front of me. Small world indeed. The first time i saw her, i was shocked and at the same time scared to approach her as i was not sure. So, i just let her slip. Then, my friend was asking me to approach her. So, i told myself that if i happened to bump into her again, then i would approach her. And Gods willing again, she was walking towards me and i went and talked to her. When she confirmed her name, i was so happy and upon recognising me, she was so speechless. We were just staring at each other in disbelief and i bet i saw tinge of tears in her eyes. The same was happening to me either. Quickly we updated each other about the things that happened in the 10 years span. I was surprised to know that actually, she knows about my whereabouts in 10 years time as she always ask people about me. The only surprise for her was when she came to know that i am a teacher now. I remember her coaxing me saying that i will be a lawyer in the future as i always wanted to be when i crying that i did poorly in one of my subjects when i was in standard 5. So she was, "What, Teacher? You could have done better than this with your results right? Did i not warn you not to be a teacher?,,,bla..bla " There she was nagging as a typical teacher as she always has been..

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